Glassy eyes

I woke up this morning my eyes really hurting, I felt all this pressure around them. I looked in the mirror my god do I look like shit. My eyes had this gloss over them, it was like I was drinking all night but I wasn't. What the hell is wrong with me, I am probably coming down with something. That is all I need right now to deal with a cold to drag me down.

I thought I would go to the store and buy some fruit, O.J. and a bunch of healthy things quick after work, praying no one will see me, I am telling you I didn't look good. I think everyone was in that store that I knew, almost all of them said you don't look so good is there something wrong, are you sick? So, I am in the store dodging people that I knew, quickly turning the other way so they didn't see me, it is funny now that I think about it. I just have this in my head if people see me that way, they think I am having a hard time with my divorce. Honestly, I am having a hard time but I don't want them to know about it and feel sorry for me. That is the last thing I want is people to feel sorry for me. Or be the talk of the town like I saw Tammy in a store she looked terrible she isn't handling her divorce very well. By the way I live in a small town where every person knows about everything. I do have friends and family helping me deal with it, so I am lucky there. I should be worrying only about myself and not what other people are thinking about my situation. I am working on that I have this list on things I like to change about myself, that is for another time to vent about.