The Past

Tonight, I am going to though some boxes that I had in the back of my closet. It was pictures of me growing up when I was a baby till I graduated from high school. It is always fun to look back at yourself when you were younger and all the great memories that you have gone though. I really didn't realize that seeing my mom in some of those pictures would hit me so hard. I have pictures of my mom around my house but I think seeing us together in those pictures just brought back the memories that we shared and what I am missing out on now with her today. I do think of my mom every single day but seeing us together like that it really hit me. My mom died almost 10 years ago and it feels like yesterday. Yes, it is 10 years but it still hurts so bad inside, its a piece of me missing and I will never get back and it has changed me for the rest of my life. I am 32 years old but you always need your mom I don't care what you say, you do!! I would do anything to get a chance to talk to her or even get a hug from her now. I just keep on telling myself she is in a better place now and don't be so selfish and only think of yourself. I just needed to sit down and have a good old cry and let it all out. I do have to say I do feel so much better now.