Sick and alone

It's the weekend and I am home sick!! When people are sick WHY do they come to work??? I am not talking a little cold but when they look like they are knocking on their death bed. STAY HOME!!! I tried to stay away from them washing my hands all the time and now my hands are so dry and chapped they hurt to now!
Yep, I am in one of my moods again! Like I am mad at the world and I am ready for a good fight! I tell myself just relax and don't be so stressed out, but then my other side kicks in and says screw off and lets put up a fight with anything. See I am not a happy person today! I don't want to talk to anyone my answering machine is screening my calls. I feel if I do talk to anyone I will regret it later! THIS REALLY SUCKS! I really don't like being this way BUT BUT......... I don't have anything for a good excuse! My friends THINK they know why!!!!??????? LACK OF SEX!!! I hear that all the time and it's so old!
Sounds like I have a spilt personality, HA HA! Good that I can look back and laugh but sometimes it's not funny at all. Maybe I have to much on my mind and I am to overwhelmed by everything and just lose control. I do feel a little better now venting!!
Jim and I are still talking to each other but not as much. We talked and I told him that I really don't want anything serious now. I think there was no spark for me and that is why I didn't want to go any more farther with him. But I want him as a friend I don't want to lose that with him. I just have this feeling he cant except that just a friendship with me, but I never got those feeling with him.
Blah Blah!! My life!!!